.To Go or Not to Go.

Should I be a responsible gal and stay here this weekend and study for my finals, or for once live on the edge and drive up to San Francisco? My overly organized, logical and planner side of my brain is working overtime to get me to stay right where I am, in the library...my home away from home. On the other hand, my let it go and enjoy yourself half is very tired of being stuck in here. Conundrum.
School is seriously my top priority it's what I eat, breathe and sleep every day! I worry and worry with every project and paper I turn in, it's disgusting. It does tend to pay off in the end, the two papers I have had returned to me were both A's! Yay me...pat myself on the back! Of course I am still beating myself up and worrying to death about the third one that I should receive tomorrow.
Texas State does not have a transfer requirements list at all, which already makes me uncomfortable, and I feel as though they may base a lot of emphasis for acceptance on GPA. This little tid-bit is ruining my sleep. I am not a 4.0 student, I can admit that. I am not one of those people that is just fantastic at everything I do...I have to work my ass off for everything I have. Granted my GPA is still commendable, but it's NEVER enough for me! Most recently with my A in Middle Eastern history, it wasn't a high enough A, so I was upset. Silly, I know. It really, really bothered me to the point of almost tears! "Not a high enough A"....get a grip! She even asked for a copy of my paper and I still wasn't excited, so hard on myself. Now I can be happy and accept it for what it is, but it took me a few days.
I cannot wait for this semester to be over, to start TSU and for my next life endeavor...learning Arabic!


  1. i hate to say it.. but i think you should stay home... because if you go.. will you really be able to enjoy it.. or will you be thinking the whole time "i should be home studying... i should be home studying" and then when you get back.. and take your finals.. and get a not high enough A.. you will beat yourself up over going in the first place...
    at least that's everything that would go on with me! :-)
    Good Luck on the finals... you will do great!! :-)

  2. Hmm... can't help you there! This is Danielle's friend Rhonda, by the way. I check in on you every now & then. I love that you are so interested in the Middle Eastern Culture. My husband is Syrian & so I know A LOT about it. I just came back from spending 2 1/2 weeks in Kuwait. Good luck with learning Arabic! I took it for 2 semesters but truthfully what helps me the most in being surrounded by it.

  3. you know you can be good at everything.no one is perfect.you got to accept what you get as long as your tried. thats how it works in life