This year has gone by too fast and it has been very up and down. Losing my grandma, school starting, and living in central Texas has been all new and difficult. Despite it all, I have really made it a point to try and be as positive as I can about what life has to offer. I think I've done an alright job, but it wasn't always easy (actually, "easy" is probably not the word I would ever choose to describe it). I think at this point I can finally start talking about the hardest thing, losing grandma, in a way that's healthy. Which, is a really big step for me. I may write about it on here at some point, but I don't know if I am quite there yet.
Last night I went out for the first time in 2 months with my bff from San Francisco and we spent the night reminiscing over the past. I haven't been back to the city in 2 years and THAT blows my mind. I spent my growing up years there and I wouldn't trade those memories for the world, but I am glad to have moved on with my life. Although slow, progress is progress.
Sorry this is such a scattered little update, but it is pretty true to the state of mind I'm functioning now a days. Hopefully, I can settle in pretty soon!
xoxox.
starting school blew my mind in the beginning too, there is so much to do and it's like you are constantly burting because of all the thoughts and changes in your mind. I'm at it since 4 years now and I still can't get my mind to shut up half the time ^^ you learn to live with it though. It is fun after all :) trying to stay positive is just the right thing to do, even if it does take all your will power to think a happy thaught once in a while.
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Melanie
I am so sorry about your grandma. It's a tough thing to lose someone you love. I lost my grandma just over a year ago. She was my mom's mom, and watching your mom lose her mom is hard in a way I had never experienced before. We were really close, and it sounds like you were close to your grandma, too. The healing process takes time, and it is definitely not steady. It's more like two steps forward, one step back. Just know that it's okay to feel what you feel when you feel it. There's no right path when it comes to grieving.
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