.Starting Over.

I am picking myself up by my doc laces and getting through this.
Tough times for a tough gal!

.Everyday is a Better Day.

I was feeling pretty down and negative for a little while. Some really important things to me fell through and with me being a little wary of the idea of destiny, my first reaction is not always "whatever happens, happens for a reason". I do have faith in life, however, and I am a firm believer that what goes around comes around and eventually life will reward you for persevering though the tough parts. In other words, I know that my time will come and things will eventually work out positively. A few set backs are frustrating, but I will be a better person for it.
With every thing falling through I have had a lot of extra time to myself and me being me...I have spent a lot of it thinking, thinking, thinking. This year has been something else and I can hardly believe all the changes I've experienced so far! New places, faces and experiences!
One experience I haven't missed...going out to dinner with a guy I don't know..UGH. Alright, alright it turned out ok...I made a friend! I'm not entirely sure that he's aware he is in the friend category....but that's where he is staying! I'm not an easy gal to take out, or convince that you belong anywhere but in the friend section of my life. It may sound closed minded, or ridiculous to some, but within 2 hours of meeting a guy I can already tell....really. I'm pretty picky. I won't apologize for it either...it is what it is!
Today is a new day and I am on a mission to fix a few things. I will end this day with at least one stress causing situation off my shoulders. I just have to remain positive, trust myself and life, things will happen!

.Everyone I Know is Looking for Love.

Whether you've had it once or never had it at all it seems that everyone is looking for the "one". The other night I was sitting with three other women and the first thing to be discussed in regards to finding someone was the "type". Could it really be love if you're not into someone who is blond, short or unattractive...or is that what love is? Is it really destiny or a chemical rush when we see someone who might help make pretty babies? Maybe it's a healthy compromise of both?
Clearly, I'm not sure about the whole thing. I am clear about the love I feel for family and friends, but everything else seems so...dangerous, unsure and risky. I am no stranger to going out on a limb, but I usually leave my heart safely behind until I am sure of my footing. I have been pretending for so long and I am not a "normal" girl who wants "normal" life things marriage, babies and true love, but here I am coming out of the dungeon...I want, I want, I want. I am uncomfortable with the idea of a biological clock, but something is ticking, I think I'll go with my biological bomb! One of the other important ticking sounds I'm hearing is my career...this may actually trump the love tick....a girl can only change so much!


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.Currently.

Sitting outside at my pool in Austin, Texas! It is really weird to finally be here after so much planning and waiting, but here I am and it is HOT. People here live inside or in some body of water for good reason! Being outside turns you into a melting mess of a person. I have spent most of my time so far registering my car and other life sort of things, but I have done some exploring! Barton Springs is so wonderful and it's strange to think something that looks like just a pool came up from the ground! After wards Chelsea and I savored some Lone Star beers and a Shangrita at Shangri-la. Each guy we happened to stand next to offered to buy us drinks or tell us some sort of story, they all seem to be under the impression that they are "southern gentlemen"...I will not complain. The one thing that will take some time to get used to is the freeway exits here. There are no numbers and barely any warning....just green signs that say "exit" with a silly little arrow, I cross my fingers each time I exit hoping I had chose wisely. It's all educated guessing while navigating here. Folks who have lived here for 10 or more years are still using their iphones to figure out where to go, not comforting! Other than that I like it here so far, I have a lot more exploring to do and I can't wait to see what else the Lone Star state has to offer!